Alright – so I am going to be writing more often and with that – I will be introducing AUDIO to my blog. This will give my readers the option of listening to my blog…rather than having to read it? Episodes are read by an auto-reader right now but once I am up to date I may start to record my writings myself. Give me feedback on what you prefer if you can.
Side note: I am slowly converting old posts to audio and not ALL posts will be converted – if the post is mostly photos or something that is less than a minute long – the post will not be converted over. Conversion is done manually – so look for a “listen to audio” button on older posts, but it may take a few days for me to get caught up. 🙂
How the heck did I make it to 37 weeks? With my previous 2 pregnancies I did not make it this far – but here we are! I am really excited, scared and just anxious about having this last baby. I am so used to getting sick by now with preeclampsia and just getting induced that waiting for a baby to come naturally is just … it doesn’t feel normal but it is!
My family are all waiting anxiously because a few weeks ago I went into Triage with contractions, but they stopped. I was dilated to 3 cm, and this week my obgyn will check to see if any of that has changed. I am hoping I had the baby by 40 weeks. I really do not want to go further than that. I am going to be honest – by week 38 I will be asking my dr to schedule my induction – to at least be around my due date. I am hoping she won’t make me go much further than that since this baby is measuring bigger than ALL my other babies.
Praying I have an easy labor – I am SO used to having emergency inductions, I do not know what to expect in a normal labor. One of my nurses even pointed that out – she asked “Have you ever labored in a non-emergency way?” No… no I haven’t. Both my previous kids were rushed via emergency induction so that I could get rid of my preeclampsia. And induction is quite different from going into labor naturally and being able to take your time and birth your child with out a ton of medications (for preeclampsia) being pushed on you. Those medications usually make me feel horrid afterwards and during.
I want to be able to go in and labor and relax when I can and not feel like I have to rush or I might die. (Seriously though- take preeclampsia seriously). I still check my BP daily to make sure I am not getting it, because even though I am no longer considered “premature” you can still get preeclampsia in late pregnancy AND after pregnancy (yes you heard me right) and preeclampsia can mess up your kidneys, heart, lungs and liver… With my first I had heart problems, kidney problems and I got pneumonia after I gave birth… How? Don’t even ask me, I spent a week in SICU trying not to die. I didn’t get to see my son for a while after he was born, it sucked.
I am nervous. To give birth again. And just waiting…the waiting is killing me – I just want to hold my baby girl. And I will make sure to update you all when she is finally here ❤
I mentioned looking into Hippotherapy almost a year ago – and yes we were on a wait list for about 9-10 months but… my 3 year old finally had her first Hippotherapy session today!
So far we have been referred for PT/SLP but we had a talk and they may also want her to be referred for OT as well. We have various small developments that were delayed due to her being born prematurely and just over all not developing at the “average” rate. Lily was in OT/PT/SLP and music therapy for the first 3 years of her life. We are continuing treatment to help her prepare for school age. She still has some SPD (sensory processing disorder), and some delayed development, but she is moving along great lately.
Lily will get to spend time with the therapists and then do hippotherapy part of the time. Today was her first time ever on a horse… actually it was the first time she has seen a horse up close!
When we got home from hippotherapy, Lily kept asking to go back on the horse. Little does she know – this is a weekly thing. She will get to ride the horse again soon. If she really likes horses, we may end up looking at riding lessons for her when she is older. My older child was terrified of horses when we tried things with him in the past – so it was really interesting that Lily was not afraid AT ALL.
I am just very excited about today – you never know how your child will react to an animal for the first time. We did try to hype her up for this through the week. I let her know if she was good, her new therapist would introduce her to her pet horse. We told her she COULD possibly ride it, if she were good. I guess it worked, but she is also a very good natured child in general.
Why Hippotherapy? Honestly why not? My daughter has been in regular therapy for so long – they suggested it to us, so I signed up. I didn’t know we would qualify and it was a long wait. But I am willing to try this with her and our insurance is accepted at this facility. Not many places accept my insurance – so the facilities we are allowed to go see are limited.
My son is going to get OT at another location that does not do hippotherapy, instead he is more for the regular therapy. We had his dr refer us again recently (he has done OT before) but this time we asked to be referred for Dysgraphia. He has always had issues with his writing, he has weak hands and writes completely wrong… and it hurts for him to write too long. I have been working on this at home BUT I feel I need some help with him at this point. I need tips and tricks and an opinion of a professional.
Doesn’t this cost a lot? Yes. Therapy isn’t fully covered – we are on a HDHP and we pay a bit for services but we are lucky that my husband’s job pays well and that my son receives child support from his dad. And his child support goes to things like this. That’s what it’s there for.
I am going to keep you all updated on our hippotherapy journey. I had heard about it before my daughter went but I didn’t know anyone who has actually done it before. I think it’s pretty darn cool and I hope others will look into it as well. Not all wait lists are as long as the one we were on – we just have a limited choice of facilities to choose from because of our insurance. There were other hippotherapy locations in my town, but our insurance wouldn’t cover it.
American insurance / Healthcare at its best for you – limiting the places we can go and the treatment we can receive.
We had a decent 4th of July this year. I got to spend time with my mom and realize how horrible her memory actually is. No but seriously, I think she said she was recently dx with Pseudo Dementia, which is not actually dementia… her doctor thinks she’s depressed, because of everything – pandemic, etc… and its affecting her memory. But she keeps bringing up stuff and saying “I have never done that before”, when I CLEARLY remember her doing that…(I love my mom, and I just wonder if she REALLY forgets certain things or if she didn’t)
It’s bothersome because it makes me worry about her. Like is this really pseudo dementia or is this dementia or just old age or her just pretending she didn’t do something. Because she does this ALL the time.
Anyways – she spent 4th of July here after I started having contractions – anyways no baby YET. We think we may make it to full term. It’s crazy to think I may make it! I see my doctors tomorrow. My husband is going to join me so we can find out if they think these contractions are harmful or just Prodromal Labor. Prodromal labor is false labor BUT it can open your cervix to a certain point… like my contractions did. And they are considered REAL contractions, unlike braxton hicks, BUT they don’t progress… which is where we are. I am in pain, the baby has dropped, and I have daily contractions but nothing else. No progress.
I just want to make sure her placenta is holding up. I know contractions can cause your placenta to loosen and such. I just want a healthy baby.
Anyways I will find out more tomorrow to see if the pressure I am feeling (yes baby dropped) is doing anything or if it’s not.
Anyways back to the fourth of july. The kids enjoyed watching the fireworks in the neighborhood. We personally only do sparklers and poppers most of the time – this year we kinda forgot to get much, but it rained anyways and we had to keep running inside while watching all the neighbors stuff.
Our dogs were going crazy last night (mostly my younger one), I think my older dog is going deaf. He didn’t react at all and just sat in his crate all night. My younger girl was barking and crying all night. But they are doing much better today.
Oh yeah – Rain – it’s THAT time of year again I guess. We actually got some much needed rain the last few days. Though it made the day extremely humid afterwards, my little girl enjoyed jumping in puddles and running around.
One of her grandmother’s got her that cute raincoat, so we put it to good use.
I love seeing kids being kids. Let them play in the rain – jump in puddles. You can worry about the mess later. Your kids can bathe… the clothes can be replaced, washed or dried.
I have been having contractions for about a week now – off and on. Some days they are consistent enough to track, but when I see my Dr they have not progressed past the 3 cm dilation I was at on Tuesday last week.
So last Monday night I went into L&D, I was advised to by my Dr. Because I was having contractions that were constant, painful and I was able to track them. They kept me there in Triage for a day because the contractions were actually strong – they monitored them and checked my pelvis. I was dilated to 3cm / 50 % effaced. So they gave me some steroid shots for the baby’s lungs.
After 24 hours…my contractions slowed down and they let me go home because they had no rooms for me at the time to just be monitored in. I live in town and agreed to go home. Since then, I have seen my dr and my dilation did not change as of Friday.
I still continue to have contractions…they stop and go…and no they aren’t braxton hicks. You CAN actually have contractions that don’t make you progress into FULL labor…
So here I am on the 4th of July… having back pain… contractions and as far as I know… my cervix hasn’t changed. My dr did say she hopes baby stays in until Tuesday at least (which would make her 36 weeks). The 36 week marks when they would NOT have to rush her to NICU, unless something was horribly wrong.
So fingers crossed for Tuesday but today I am in a lot of pain. I would normally go to Triage but I have a feeling these aren’t putting me into real labor yet, so I am waiting for my body to tell me otherwise. This is my 3rd child… so … I know what labor feels like but this is my first baby I have not had to induce already (I generally get preeclampsia) and so far I have yet to get it. Fingers crossed it stays that way.
I check my BP about 10-20 times a day. No seriously preeclampsia is SERIOUS. I take it seriously.
But right now it seems that baby girl MIGHT make it into the world a few weeks early – hopefully just on her own and not via induction. For updates in real time – I am frequently on twitter. I honestly update my twitter more often than my Facebook at this point. And I post photos to Instagram when stuff happens as well.
Right now I have NOT been put on bedrest. The doctors say at 35 weeks – if I go into labor they will not stop it but they wont induce unless its an emergency. So once I make it to 36 weeks, I hope I can just relax a bit. I had my son at 36 weeks – this baby was measured at the hospital by my high risk dr, and they estimate she is 6 lbs already. My son was 5 lbs 5 oz at birth, my 34 week daughter was 4 lbs 15 oz at birth. So if this baby is actually 6 lbs, then she will be the biggest ❤
I just hope she makes it here safely and that I can have an easy delivery.