My brain is going to explode!

After a year or more in quarantine, we are sort of being social. My son is 13 and we joined a co-op for homeschoolers locally. They meet once a week and my son is very socially awkward and needs friends, so he will go for a few hours, he is vaccinated. We also do online stuff with this same group, we like the kids. My daughter still does gymnastics (masked and the facility cleans a lot). And she now does Hippotherapy once a week. We also meet up at a park with masks starting next month with our troop (we joined with a few homeschoolers, and we will be earning badges with them!

But this is a lot… I have an infant, a 3 year old and a 13 year old. My brain cannot handle all this right now so I have been neglecting everyone online here and I am sorry. But I am getting used to my new life.

Breastfeeding is NOT the easiest thing in the world. With my first child I got really sick and never got to try. With my second, she had food allergies and was born prematurely. I pumped for about 8 months and then gave up because of her food allergies. She gained weight and got healthier after I stopped. And with this baby SINCE we have a pandemic, I know my milk will have antibodies in it and I am going to try hard to keep up breastfeeding. But that means I am on a wheat free diet. Why? Because she started to behave just like my older daughter with her food allergies, so I cut out the first food that made my daughter sick…wheat. And after 2 weeks of getting it out of my system, shes spitting up less. Next is dairy. I have actually been staying away from some other foods (slightly) but I really wanted to see if wheat was the issue. My other daughter got SO sick with wheat.

So here I am – a crazy mess. I am getting used to going places again (safely). We know that if the cases rise locally we will go back to virtual only, but my son… hes been struggling. We have been working with him on so much. He needs kids his own age, so at least we found a group that is pretty safe. The families tend to all believe in science and most are taking precautions like us.

My husband has had 6 weeks off with me, and pretty soon he goes back to work. I am going to try to juggle all 3 kids after that. I don’t know how I will do doctor visits when most say I CAN’T bring more than one kid… I really don’t know how I will do that…or my own dentist visit… heck I am not allowed anyone in that at all, ugh. I may have to reschedule so many things until stuff gets better.

We are also dealing with my upcoming surgery – yes I am planning to get my tubes tied, burned and ripped out! I do not want to have any more kids! I am done! But yeah that shouldn’t take too long to heal from hopefully. I also have to talk to my surgeon about the surgery I put off last year… that is gonna be fun. I have a cyst I need removed. In a delicate place. NOT FUN. And my husband … has TN… and he may need surgery, we have been referred to TWO neurosurgeons locally.

Life is never easy.

But we are both doing well. I am going to talk to my work about doing 4 hours a week to stay on payroll. Then maybe in another month I will add on 4 more hours (I really do not NEED to work) but I stay employed just to have a job. I am on staff PRN. So it works out for us!

Anything else? ehhhhh not so much… I am going to make some more posts soon about the co-op and the kids.

Oh did I forget to announce it here?

Okay fine… I have been holding off on announcing it here – mostly due to my lack of sleep and the fact that every time I sit down at my desktop… the baby cries …

Yes you read that correctly… baby.

Baby Rosalie Inez was born July 19th 2021 – she was 7lbs and is doing VERY well.

I will write a separate post about my labor and delivery later – I am not in the mood to get into that mess at this moment but I did go into labor sort of naturally. No real complications outside of the very last minutes of birth/delivery.

The morning of July 19th, I was sitting here at my desk. I stood up and my water broke… Kind of like the movies EXCEPT… I had a pad on because I actually thought I kept peeing myself all night long, so I guess I was trickling water from my amniotic sack. Which ended up being fine at the end.

I went right into the hospital and we started induction because my labor was NOT progressing – 12 hours later I had my baby girl in my arms. After 4 days we went home, finally. And I have been trying to adjust to being a mother to 3 kids. My hormones have been pretty up and down and today it hit me and I was a bit depressed but not PPD.

So now that Rosalie has been home for over a week now – we are able to relax, and get used to our new life. The dogs are still getting used to the baby and they are hyper around her so I have been keeping them from her until I feel that they are more calm. My one dog was like this with Lillian as well. But my older dog seems to be okay with it all.

My health? Oh so I am doing pretty good myself – my stomach / hips and other various body parts hurt a bit still – more achy than anything. So I have been taking it easy so I don’t hurt myself during my recovery. I am going to talk to my dr about permanent birth control (sterilization) at my 6 week appointment. Though… ugh… my husband has mentioned wanting a son, and I had to remind him that even if we tried again… I cannot promise the baby would be a boy… in fact…he has already given me 2 girls… so the odds I feel….would be … that we would get another girl. I just have a feeling.

And I would love more kids but my body can’t handle it. Again this labor was horrible at the end… I will honestly try to post soon about it. I had to take a week to run things through my mind again- but I personally would never like to see that ON CALL OBGYN ever again… or I might let her know how I felt about my labor. I will be complaining to MY doctor about her associate… I just feel the entire LAST part of my labor was just a mess.

Ugh anyways! I need to update my photo sometime on this website! I will work on that 🙂

I will update soon -we will be starting homeschool up again this coming week or so and I want to talk about my delivery. Keep up to date on the baby on my instagram and twitter (both links are on the right of my page here).

Updating – Audio Blog?

Alright – so I am going to be writing more often and with that – I will be introducing AUDIO to my blog. This will give my readers the option of listening to my blog…rather than having to read it? Episodes are read by an auto-reader right now but once I am up to date I may start to record my writings myself. Give me feedback on what you prefer if you can.

Side note: I am slowly converting old posts to audio and not ALL posts will be converted – if the post is mostly photos or something that is less than a minute long – the post will not be converted over. Conversion is done manually – so look for a “listen to audio” button on older posts, but it may take a few days for me to get caught up. 🙂

We made it to 37 weeks!

Photo is from one of my Non-stress tests at the MFM doctor

How the heck did I make it to 37 weeks? With my previous 2 pregnancies I did not make it this far – but here we are! I am really excited, scared and just anxious about having this last baby. I am so used to getting sick by now with preeclampsia and just getting induced that waiting for a baby to come naturally is just … it doesn’t feel normal but it is!

My family are all waiting anxiously because a few weeks ago I went into Triage with contractions, but they stopped. I was dilated to 3 cm, and this week my obgyn will check to see if any of that has changed. I am hoping I had the baby by 40 weeks. I really do not want to go further than that. I am going to be honest – by week 38 I will be asking my dr to schedule my induction – to at least be around my due date. I am hoping she won’t make me go much further than that since this baby is measuring bigger than ALL my other babies.

Praying I have an easy labor – I am SO used to having emergency inductions, I do not know what to expect in a normal labor. One of my nurses even pointed that out – she asked “Have you ever labored in a non-emergency way?” No… no I haven’t. Both my previous kids were rushed via emergency induction so that I could get rid of my preeclampsia. And induction is quite different from going into labor naturally and being able to take your time and birth your child with out a ton of medications (for preeclampsia) being pushed on you. Those medications usually make me feel horrid afterwards and during.

I want to be able to go in and labor and relax when I can and not feel like I have to rush or I might die. (Seriously though- take preeclampsia seriously). I still check my BP daily to make sure I am not getting it, because even though I am no longer considered “premature” you can still get preeclampsia in late pregnancy AND after pregnancy (yes you heard me right) and preeclampsia can mess up your kidneys, heart, lungs and liver… With my first I had heart problems, kidney problems and I got pneumonia after I gave birth… How? Don’t even ask me, I spent a week in SICU trying not to die. I didn’t get to see my son for a while after he was born, it sucked.


I am nervous. To give birth again. And just waiting…the waiting is killing me – I just want to hold my baby girl. And I will make sure to update you all when she is finally here ❤


I mentioned looking into Hippotherapy almost a year ago – and yes we were on a wait list for about 9-10 months but… my 3 year old finally had her first Hippotherapy session today!

Lily -excited about petting a horse (she rode it as well) – this is Wally the horse

So far we have been referred for PT/SLP but we had a talk and they may also want her to be referred for OT as well. We have various small developments that were delayed due to her being born prematurely and just over all not developing at the “average” rate. Lily was in OT/PT/SLP and music therapy for the first 3 years of her life. We are continuing treatment to help her prepare for school age. She still has some SPD (sensory processing disorder), and some delayed development, but she is moving along great lately.

Lily will get to spend time with the therapists and then do hippotherapy part of the time. Today was her first time ever on a horse… actually it was the first time she has seen a horse up close!

Lily on the horse for the first time

When we got home from hippotherapy, Lily kept asking to go back on the horse. Little does she know – this is a weekly thing. She will get to ride the horse again soon. If she really likes horses, we may end up looking at riding lessons for her when she is older. My older child was terrified of horses when we tried things with him in the past – so it was really interesting that Lily was not afraid AT ALL.

The introduction ❤

I am just very excited about today – you never know how your child will react to an animal for the first time. We did try to hype her up for this through the week. I let her know if she was good, her new therapist would introduce her to her pet horse. We told her she COULD possibly ride it, if she were good. I guess it worked, but she is also a very good natured child in general.

Why Hippotherapy? Honestly why not? My daughter has been in regular therapy for so long – they suggested it to us, so I signed up. I didn’t know we would qualify and it was a long wait. But I am willing to try this with her and our insurance is accepted at this facility. Not many places accept my insurance – so the facilities we are allowed to go see are limited.

My son is going to get OT at another location that does not do hippotherapy, instead he is more for the regular therapy. We had his dr refer us again recently (he has done OT before) but this time we asked to be referred for Dysgraphia. He has always had issues with his writing, he has weak hands and writes completely wrong… and it hurts for him to write too long. I have been working on this at home BUT I feel I need some help with him at this point. I need tips and tricks and an opinion of a professional.

Doesn’t this cost a lot? Yes. Therapy isn’t fully covered – we are on a HDHP and we pay a bit for services but we are lucky that my husband’s job pays well and that my son receives child support from his dad. And his child support goes to things like this. That’s what it’s there for.

I am going to keep you all updated on our hippotherapy journey. I had heard about it before my daughter went but I didn’t know anyone who has actually done it before. I think it’s pretty darn cool and I hope others will look into it as well. Not all wait lists are as long as the one we were on – we just have a limited choice of facilities to choose from because of our insurance. There were other hippotherapy locations in my town, but our insurance wouldn’t cover it.

American insurance / Healthcare at its best for you – limiting the places we can go and the treatment we can receive.

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